I am still at a lost for words about the passing of my younger brother, Terrance Jackson last Friday. Everything feels like it is moving in slow motion, at times, it feels like an outer body experience. You see yourself, standing there, watching everything happen around you. You are engulfed by the chaos. The incessant ringing of the phone, the constant ringing of the doorbell, the swift movement of people around you. You can hear people talk to you but it’s as though you are underwater. Just the sound of muffled voices make it through your ears. You try to move, but your feet a weighed down, your body exhausted, your mind elsewhere and nothing makes sense…in short, you are lost.