I just want to express my eternal gratitude to everyone that has given me and my family so much love and support. Again, I am speechless. Thank you all for being there, especially a few people (who know who they are) that have been getting me out of house, hanging with me and watching movies and not letting me disappear. I am damn stubborn person, but sometimes, I guess you just have to surrender and let people carry you. I am so thankful for the amazing friends that I have, I would be struggling so much more if it weren’t for them just being present.
There is a donation site for the memory of my brother. If you would like to donate, please do. Every bit counts. Also, even if you can’t donate, I just appreciate all the thoughtful words. Remember, any person that takes a moment to be kind is beautiful. And to me, all you guys are extremely beautiful. I wish I could hug each person that has sent their condolences.
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I am still at a lost for words about the passing of my younger brother, Terrance Jackson last Friday. Everything feels like it is moving in slow motion, at times, it feels like an outer body experience. You see yourself, standing there, watching everything happen around you. You are engulfed by the chaos. The incessant ringing of the phone, the constant ringing of the doorbell, the swift movement of people around you. You can hear people talk to you but it’s as though you are underwater. Just the sound of muffled voices make it through your ears. You try to move, but your feet a weighed down, your body exhausted, your mind elsewhere and nothing makes sense…in short, you are lost.
I know the latest Sia video is causing people’s knickers to be all in a twist but I find the video to be absolutely beautiful, haunting and heartbreaking. I can se how people find the video to be inappropriate and “creepy” but if you take a closer look, it’s two warring selves trapped in caged heart.
We both have war inside us. Sometimes it keeps us alive. Sometimes it threatens to destroy us.
“I’ve got thick skin and an elastic heart
But your blade it might be too sharp
I’m like a rubberband until you pull too hard
I may snap and I move to fast
But you won’t see me fall apart
‘Cos I’ve got an elastic heart”